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28 January 2007 @ 02:46 pm
I'm always a student. That's fine by me.  
I haven’t kept us with this very well… I think it’s because I don’t exactly like to reveal all that is going on in my life… but it seems to be someone that everyone does on this island. I know that the last update I gave was very angry and upset, but the reasons for it have been worked out. I am not pleased with the revelations, but I’m unable to do much about them save for prepare for them. Yami told me what he believes is the truth behind this island… but I can’t believe such a story. It’s too impossible to think about. There has to be some other explanation that I’m missing. I don’t want to think that I owe my mind to someone. That’s impossible. I refuse… I can’t believe that. There are too many people that I care about here. But I don’t know why bad things keep happening to them and all over the place. I know that about a month back, a very close friend of mine was injured and the professor had to treat him. I made a hasty judgment and took my leave, a fact that did not seem to please one of the people there. I wasn’t in the best of moods, but at least I didn’t try to start a fight by insulting. The night’s tension didn’t let up, even though my friend was healed and everyone left. The professor and I had a talk about that later… It wasn’t long after that I was forced to choose between living with the anger and confusion that I had been gathering for all this time… or if I would just let it go and take the life I’d been given as it was. I chose the second one. I will not deny truth and say that I am no longer upset with how things are. I’m still very much angry at how things work on this place. But I will not retreat into some kind of shell and rage. At times, I have difficulty in controlling my anger, but I think it’s because of the headaches. The more they hurt, the angrier I get. The angrier I get, the more they hurt. Logic is simple. Don’t get angry. It’s not as easy as it sounds, but I’ll be working on it. But I’ve not had much time to be angry in the past few weeks. Everyone was busy with something that the professor told me was a time called “Christmas.” I was confused over the whole thing, but due to the professor’s and my friends’ explaining things that I asked about, I wasn’t as lost as I thought I’d be. I did receive gifts, but I was too unfamiliar with everything to return the actions. However, it was a nice time that we got to be together with everyone. I got to see Seto, Jounouchi, Yami, Mokuba, and Shizuka again, all at the same time. There was another person there named Chrno. I guess he is a friend of the professor’s, as the professor was very kind and caring towards him. Chrno seemed like a nice person, quiet, but very pleasant. I enjoyed the season, as it’s called, as well as the New Years that followed it. Speaking of “new,” my relationship with Yami has been improving very steadily. I’m not going into detail here because it is of a private matter, but I did move out of the Professor’s house and in with Yami at his own home. I think this change worked well for everyone, myself included. I like to be with Yami, to support him and help him when he is not feeling well. I think I’ll be able to do that on an even greater level now that a certain… issue has been accepted. I’ve still got lots of learning to do in my new home, but I’m well on my way and I enjoy it.
 
 
Current Location: Yami's house
Current Mood: pondering
Current Music: Fire in the hearth
 
 
 
 

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