I’m really not liking this place at the moment. I was going to see Seto for a quick meeting that hadn’t been planned. I know there’s a word for that, but I can’t remember it right now. When I got close to his building, I saw this crystal on the side of it. I don’t know a lot about this planet, but I know that crystal was out of place. Seto, who met me at the window, agreed. I got to talk to him. While we did question about the crystal, the larger part of the meeting was about what happened a few weeks ago. I was worried about what was going to happen to me since I did that… But as I talked with Seto, he was able to calm my worries about it. I still don’t agree with what I did. I don’t find any pleasure in it and I don’t like doing it. I promised that instead of ever letting that happen again, I would retreat to avoid the confrontation or just use my defensive powers until I was able to escape. Seto told me that there were acceptances for what I did. He, himself, was grateful to me for helping his brother. I know that neither of us wish for actions like what I did, but I know that at times, there is need for it. He was able to take away my guilt over the matter, even though I still feel bad for it. However, I’m not going to “beat myself up” as people say here. It will take time for me to forgive myself, but I’m going to try to do so. What makes me very wary and upset right now is that Yami’s gone. I’m fearing that what happened to Seto and Jounouchi happened to Yami… Which is why I need to talk to either of them or the professor. I don’t trust myself to keep my calm at this point in time. I can already feel my anger rising and it makes my head hurt, something the professor made very clear to me means that I might lose myself again. So I’m trying to stay calm because I don’t want to kill anyone again. I updated this at the professor’s insistence, incase something happens. As it is now, I need to go see the professor again, because I’m probably going to need something to calm me down. I hope Seto and Jounouchi can help me… I know that Yami is part of their… family? I don’t know. But I don’t trust myself to do this alone. I might… kill someone again.